Monday, November 20, 2017

11 Favorite Things

Hi all :-D

In tune with Thanksgiving, I thought Id go with one of my routine posts on 11 things I am loving at the moment, which hopefully will give you some fun ideas of your own!

1. Matcha!  Those who know me are familiar with my love of green tea.  In fact, its really the only type of tea I drink.  Matcha, a quite strong/highly concentrated, pure form of green tea, is said to be awesome for your health.  Its basically the highest quality of green tea available.
To name a few of the lamented benefits: supposedly, it helps calm you.  It is said to boost metabolism.  Matcha can increase energy levels and endurance.  It helps detoxify the body and raise metabolism. 
To read a few more of the benefits in detail, click this link.

In the meantime, for a delicious dessert that's loaded with Matcha, and is oh-so-good, check out this Matcha Tiramisu.  Easy to make and totally tasty.

2.  Poetry.  I am shocked to say this one, as I have never had even a remote interest in poetry.  Neither toward reading, nor writing it.  But over the past one or two weeks, I have found myself beginning to pen a few poems here and there.  And even further surprised to find myself drawn towards it more and more.

The only poetry book I've ever read (picked this one up about 4 months ago and finished it in two days.  Really moving, well written and gripping) is the one pictured below, Milk and Honey.  I highly recommend it, both for a unique reading experience and some inspiration.

And, below, two great quotes for a person doing any kind of writing...

3. Saturday Night Live.  While I find their skits to typically be hit or miss so rarely have I watched it over the years, I have been joining my mom on the couch (a roaring fire in the hearth by our sides, a particularly enticing addition to the scene) to watch a few episodes here and there over the past couple weeks.  Each time, resulting in the two of us howling with laughter.

One of the clips in particular that got us clutching ourselves giggling:

Larry David, pretending to be the recipient of a prominent award.  During which they revisit some of his "early work" prior to his becoming such a notable dude.

And for good measure, my all time favorite SNL skit ever.  Hillary Clinton (Amy Poehler) and Sarah Palin (Tina Fey), squaring off in a mock debate.  This. Is. Awesome.  All of it.  The dialogue, the body language, the outfits, oh man.  I'm dying, re-watching it now ;-)

4. The Wire, season four.  In the process of re-watching this at the moment and my god, do I now recall what an emotional whammy it packs.  Yes, its hard to watch.  But its a very worthwhile watching.  The story of season four of this poignant, gripping, phenomenal show taking place within inner city schools, honing in on four young boys and the trajectory of their lives over the course of one school year. 

The show doesn't spare the watchers feelings or heart, tending towards realistic as opposed to feel good.  The Wire boosts some of the most complex, intricate, well done acting and character development I have ever seen.  Some of the most impressive layering of multiple plotlines, somehow seamlessly blended together.  Offering up everything one could possibly want in a worthwhile story and show. 

Suspense, inspiration, finding yourself emotionally moved and stirred with every season.  Growing invested and involved in the characters and their journeys.  Even sometimes rooting for the "bad" guys while feeling disgusted with the supposed "good" guys.  Much of this show doesn't showcase the black and white, so easily labeled right/wrong aspects of humanity (which isn't much of what it truly means to be human anyway, if we are being real), but instead occupies that wide space laden with significant varying shades of gray.

5.  Tim Riggins.  Long live Riggins from Friday Night Lights.  To my close friends, enough said ;-).  They know. 

PS. Unfinished business remains on the FNL front with Melissa and Davor in Germany, which we will finish at some point.  Save the date...for some unknown but promised future day!  In the meantime though, continue to think of me and hand over the details whenever you see him in a movie or other TV show ;-p

6. A few especially awesome quotes.  Ever a lover of quotes (another thing those close to me will not be surprised in), these few have been my favorites as of late.  Some written thought provokers and inspiration for ya.

One of my very favorites.

7.  TED talks.  Don't know what TED is?  Its worth your time to find out.  So many potentially life changing, very worthwhile, fascinating, awe inspiring talks on this website.

This remains one of the most inspiring and awesome that I have ever watched.

8. Anticipation-worthy lunches.  Ok, this is a silly, little Brookeism that, ready for it people?  Has the power to change your daily life.  Here it is: take 10-15 minutes each night (or at least, a few nights each week.  However many you like) to make yourself a truly delicious, varied, awesome lunch for the following day.  This is just the bomb diggity. 

Not only do you get to look forward to it through that evening, in anticipation of the next day.  But when you wake up and grab the lunch from your fridge, you feel excited as your morning passes, looking forward to eating it.  Then, pulling out the totally tasty fixings you put together, mouth watering in wait, the best.  And finally, eating it :-D.  Plus, afterward, feeling satisfied and great through the remainder of your afternoon.

(For instance, tomorrow is a salad loaded with spinach, chopped peppers, red onion, cherry tomatoes, half an avocado, and topped with a scoop of tuna fish with a bit of mayo.  A side of pomegranate seeds with a sprinkling of dairy-free chocolate chips mixed in.  And a gluten/dairy free snack bar made with chocolate and sea salt).

I'm telling you, taking the little bit of time to make a stellar lunch for the following day?  One of the frequently underrated but most awesome aspects of life.  Try it and see.  It will add of layer of joy and greatness to your standard day.  Choose whatever fixins excite you the most!

9. Christmas.  I know, I know, its not even Thanksgiving yet.  And don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to rush through that one.  I love Thanksgiving.  The coziness of it, all the delicious food, the (ideally) gathering with close friends and/or family.  Here is the recounting of my very first dinner party hosted entirely solo, back in Germany over Thanksgiving.  Was that both terrifying and totally awesome.  However, Christmas, alongside of birthdays, is my favorite holiday.

I love the special desserts, holiday specific sweets and treats.  The way everything feels kind of romantic and magical.  A sense of excitement and anticipation in the air.  Christmas markets- if you live in Europe :-D.  Snow, glittering, peaceful, mysterious and beautiful.  The parties and festive fun times with friends.  The decorations.  Christmas trees- and only the real deal will suffice ;-).  The smell of pine filling your living room.  The glow of rainbow colored lights adding an inviting warmth and holiday splendor to the room.  The fun of searching out the truly personal gifts, the ones that will delight and move your loved recipients. 

I see so many people snatching up generic scented candles or bath soaps for women, ties or cologne for men.  Generally kind of lame.  You can most certainly do better.  But to do better, you have to truly know someone.  What do they love?  What excites them?  Who are they?  That's how to find the gifts that will really thrill those to whom you are giving.  I love and delight in this.  Its such fun.  And it comes hand in hand with birthdays, as well as Christmas.

A few photos I snapped below from the Christmas markets in Europe...

10.  Faith.  This is something I have both had to come to rely on, as well as have grown to feel quite good (centered, calmer, happier) whenever occupying this mental space.  Faith, being very closely aligned with the concept of Grace, which I wrote about in depth here on this entry.

Most of my return to the US from Europe (going on 4 months now.  Kind of crazy, as it feels much longer than this that I have been back already) has been phenomenal.  Reconnecting with friends whom I haven't been able to spend much time with for years, the relationship-changing experience of living with my mom for the time being.  So many fun, meaningful moments already with my friends, making new memories and reconnecting.  As well as a plethora of awesome experiences and times with my mom.  And, a budding, exciting romance with promising potential, one of the sweetest surprises of my return as well thus far.

I am thrilled being here.  Coming back was the right move.  I am not changing my stance on that for a second.  However, the job hunting has proven to be tough.  Far more so than I anticipated.  I have applied to easily 60 jobs, likely more.  While I have received a solid handful of calls back, as well as 4-5 invitations for interviews, and even three job offers, nothing has been the right fit yet.

At times, I have grown discouraged, sad and even a bit down on myself.  Feeling like a bit of a loser, anxious for when I will find something (stressed in the not knowing), as well as almost like I am sort of just hanging out in limbo.  Here, back in the US, but not quite having gotten started on building my actual life here yet.  (Which of course, isn't actually true.  There are many things I've begun building and creating).  I am lucky to have a loving, solid support system.  A handful of generous, wonderful people who have helped me feel nothing other than cared for, safe and that they are there for me.  This is beyond helpful, emotionally comforting, and meaningful.  However, I am still itching to land a job that's the right fit for me.  (Meaning, salary is higher than poverty level, work that is full time, close to Boston or Portsmouth, NH, and something I would actually somewhat enjoy doing and derive some satisfaction from).

After having received several loving, supportive, insightful pep talks from my mom, I am reminded time and time again that this is ok.  A transition period.  Its important to wait for the right thing to come along, which it will.  "You are doing all the right things," she reassures me.  "Putting in so much effort to your search.  Just be patient.  It will play out.  This is only temporary.  And you have had job offers.  More will come.  In the meantime, you have a home.  You have loving circle of people who are helping you feel emotionally supported.  Its alright, Brooke.  Do not take the wrong job.  Wait for the right one.  It will come."

This has been immensely helpful to me emotionally.  So, really the only not awesome aspect of returning to the US as of now: waiting with bated breath for the right job.  I have to continue reminding myself, the universe doesn't make mistakes.  Things play out exactly as they are meant to.  The reasons of which we cannot often see until much later on, when reflecting back upon much time having passed.  This experience wont be any different.

Here is my blog entry with full details on both the best aspects and the toughest ones of my experience in being back in the states thus far.

11. Robert Alberta Tyrone.  My little buddy <3.  Our kitty.  Both a menace, with his love of any and all writing utensils (making it close to impossible for my writing ANYTHING when he is around.  Use your imagination here), as well as a sweet cuddle bug.  He loves nestling up on my lap when I'm drinking tea and doing stuff on the computer.  Craning his neck and looking up at me often, a contented, lazy, happy look in his eyes.

Yes, that would be Robert licking my bag of tea.  He LOVES him some plastic bags.  Licks them any chance he can get, much to both my moms and my amusement and confusion.

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Why leaning into instead of turning away from uncertainty can change your life

Uncertainty and ambiguity.  Without question, for a vast majority of people, from where stems the source of many of our lives worries.  Will I get this job I so want?  What does my new budding friendship think of me?  Will this potentially big romantic relationship work out?  Where might I be living in 1 year, 5 years or 10?  Will I land that promotion or not?  I haven't heard from a close friend in ages, am I going to lose them?  Someone close to me is mad at me, will they be able to forgive or not?  The list of life quandaries and dilemmas goes on and on. 

Life is filled, daily, hourly, even minutely, with uncertainty.

This scares a lot of people.  For some, it even prompts them in turning away from things that, because of the uncertainty, scare them into remaining in situations that may no longer be good fits.  People who stay in relationships long past their expiration dates, that are no longer the right fit, staying because of memories, comfort and shared history.  Thus, missing out on other relationships that could be far better matches and with much greater potential for joy, fulfillment and growth.  People who stay in jobs that are easy, unchallenging, no longer very fulfilling, all because its "easy" and "too much work finding another one."  Likely leading to days passed in a fog of mundane, half asleep motion, and not much excitement or satisfaction.  People who turn away from experiences that excite them deeply, whether moving across the world, skydiving, taking a new class which intimidates them, making a career change mid life, attempting a feat they've never tried before but want to, all out of fear.  Worrying what the outcome might be.  What if it doesn't work out, what if it sucks, what if I make the wrong choice, etc.  So they remain complacent, in a rut, and they miss out.

Here is why learning to navigate and even step into, instead of away from uncertainty, can change your life in drastic ways:

1.  Uncertainty, believe it or not, is exciting.  This is at the very crux of what it means to be truly alive.  Ever being on edge of the never fully knowing.  And thus, wondering how it will all turn out.  If you already knew all the answers, or had already read the ending, where would the fun in that be?  Sure, it might be less stressful.  It would also be a lot boring, and pretty void of awe inspiring potential, surprise, and growth.

Since uncertainty is a given in virtually all of life (in your relationships, career trajectory, your friendships, familial relations, where you'll end up living and going, with everything really), you are left with two choices on how to approach this given uncertainty of life.  Either: let it terrify you, sending you often retreating in the other direction and away from things based on fear, or, learn to somehow emotionally embrace that life is uncertain, regardless, and thats part of the deal.

The not knowing?  Oh, what fun that can be.  Its what keeps us turning the pages of the book of our lives in suspense.  Its what keeps us up at night in excitement and anticipation.  Not knowing if we will reach what we so desire is what fuels us to keep pushing towards it.  Wanting to obtain that goal.  A huge part of the romance, mystery, wonder and elation of life lies in that very not knowing, and in uncovering it, the plethora of surprises and unexpected that come with it, all along the way.  Yes, its scary.  Its also amazing awesome.

2.  Uncertainty is often from where you grow the most.  Think about it, whats tougher?  Feeling scared of something and running?  Retreating?  Or, feeling the fear but swallowing hard and diving in anyway?  Turning towards instead of away from it.  For the majority of people, the second one is far scarier and thus, harder.  However, the second one can bring you face to face with far greater riches, worthwhile challenges, and opportunities than the first one.  Feeling scared and running may keep you "safe" but you sure end up loosing out.  Living a far less vivid life than what it could be otherwise.

An important note here.  Going for it does not mean that fear goes away.  And it also doesn't mean that our fear will never get the best of us again.  We are all human.  Sometimes we will still succumb to fear and retreat or run a bit.  But the key is in recognizing this, learning from it and not allowing our lives to be ruled by fear and instead, routinely challenging that fear in search of something greater.

3.  Accepting the truth that all of life is uncertain can allow you to treat it with far more bravery and appreciation than you might otherwise.  Knowing that life is in a constant state of flux, that its ever changing, always uncertain, and there is really nothing you can do about it.  This can prompt you, if you let it, to go for the gold.  To put in your all.  To really treasure it.  To treat whats special and good in your life with the attention and intentions you truly want, knowing that nothing is certain, that time is ticking, and that life is always shifting.

4.  Uncertainty means possibilities.  If something is totally figured out, that removes any sense of wonder or possibility from it.  Think about it.  If you already know the ending to the book, the thrill is removed from reading it.  If you already know what a certain situation or experience is like entirely, that takes away much of the possibility and complexity from it.  If a situation, or life in general, is completely certain, that voids it of possibility.  So really, uncertainty is ripe with potential, possibility and opportunities.  Relish and revel in that rhelm of potential instead of fearing it because you dont know the answer.  There are hundreds upon thousands of possible answers.  And how incredible and cool is that!?!

5.  To piggyback on #5, to assume you already know something for sure, whether it be what someone means by what they say, what a situation is, etc (unless you already truly know it fully because youve been there and experienced it in depth) is often to make a grave error.  When you make assumptions, you miss out on learning opportunities, on personal growth and on great challenges to better yourself and those around you.  You miss out on moving into a greater, wiser you.

Uncertainty, the unknown, ambiguity, the question marks of our life ahead, this is all very scary.  Unnerving.  It can be distressing, unsettling, anxiety producing.  However, there is absolutely nothing you can do to change the fact that life, relationships, jobs, all of it, is uncertain and unknown.  And since you cannot change this fact, what you do have a choice over is how you will choose to think about this given of life.  

Will you let all the question marks terrify you?  Send you running in the opposite direction?  Hiding away in fear of being hurt, in losing, in making a misstep, in experiencing loss?  Or, will you realize that all of this is par for the course in human life.  Along with things being uncertain and unknown, within each life, there unquestionably will be loss, hurt, and missteps.  However, there will also be immense beauty, wonder, magic, adventure, romance, triumphs and excitement as well.

Choose instead to look at the unknown as one of the most awesome aspects of life.  As though your life is the best of books, unfolding one page at a time as you are reading it in going along (as well as your being in the drivers seat of the story, to a large degree.  Life being a mash up, in my mind, of both things happening as they are meant to in combination with our choices).  With no idea of what's to come and waiting, as well as watching, with bated breath and suspense for all the beauty that's to actualize.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Best and Worst Aspects of Moving Home from Abroad

Hi all,

Since being back in the USA for a little over three months now (after having lived in Germany for the last four years), there have been many awesome aspects to returning home/to ones own culture, as well as challenging/not so great aspects to the return as well.  In a few recent blog entries, I have outlined some personal experiences with regard to my retuning stateside. 

However this entry will be a bit less on the personally detailed stuff and instead will be more general positives and negatives that both I have experienced and assume many other expats also go through in their moving back home.  (And if an expat yourself and considering moving back "home," here are some of what you might anticipate).

Ill start with the more challenging/negative aspects.

1. Missing friends you've now left overseas deeply.  I think of several of them daily.  Yearn to see them in person.  Hug them.  To actually sit across from them and see their face as we are talking.  Walk next to them on the sidewalk.  Go to their apartment and curl up with a tea on their couch as we chat the night away.  Walk the city together, take photos and have fun in person

This is tough.  Skype sessions have taken on new weight.  Each time I see them over the screen, longing to reach through it and hug them to me.

However, while living in Europe, I experienced similar feelings for my friends back here in the US.  So either way, I have realized, it comes with the territory. 

When you live in another state or country for a long time, long enough to build a life there, whichever one you end up choosing to put down some roots and stay for a while?  You will be missing people from the other.  Or, if you decide on going back home, there will not be people you've formed relationships in your new home whom you will be ever missing.

The bitter sweetness of having lived long term in more than one place.  Though really, what an awesome problem to have :-).

2. Cost of living.  Frankfurt isn't necessarily a cheap European city, but still, cost of living was less there, big time.  When I go to the grocery store here and I pick up, say, a bag of buckwheat flour ($5), some coconut milk ($5), salmon ($8-10), quinoa ($7 ish) and the total comes to like $30!?!?  My stomach clenches just a bit every time.  That same haul in Frankfurt would have cost maybe $15-18.  When stopping by a CVS here to buy face wipes for after the gym, they cost $5, minimum.  The cheapest on offering.  Back in Frankfurt, face wipes could be nabbed for $1.  The list goes on.  Things, little daily needs (and wants), are just so much more expensive.  This is disheartening, jarring and stressful.  Its been hard to adjust to.

3.  Travel accessibility.  SO much better when living in Europe.  When I was in Germany, I could hop on over to say, Portugal, for $130 round trip.  I might spend $150 for the week to stay in a pretty nice room on Airbnb.  And then maybe $200 spending for said week. 

Basically for $500 or less, you can spend a week in another country.  A WEEK!  I nabbed a round trip ticket to Paris for $100 last summer, to spend 3 days there.  A few summers ago, I hopped on over to Florence, Italy for a week.  The ticket was $130.

All of the below adventures?  They were just a hop, skip, and a jump away from me in Germany ;-)

I miss this immensely.  The sense of possibility and magic Europe seems to hold within its hands.

4.  Vacation time.  The vacation time allotted annually here to US citizens sucks.  Its dismal.  To many Americans who haven't spent time abroad, I worry about sounding like a spoiled brat.  However, in speaking as someone who has experienced the other side of the coin first hand, it really is a big deal.  The amount of time we get here off annually is some of the lowest across the world.  We are at the bottom of the vacation time spectrum.  And studies have shown time and time and time again that people who have more vacation time are significantly happier and healthier (and being on vacation meaning that when on vacation, you are actually on vacation.  Work phone shut off, not checking work emails, literally not doing anything related to work at all.  That's what a vacation is ;-).  A vast majority of Americans don't seem able to do this) . 

Don't get me wrong, as well as being far more productive and happier at work, I don't think people necessarily need a plethora of weeks of vacation every year.  Sure, that's awesome but it isn't necessarily a necessary amount.  What is?  I would say 4 weeks annually, at minimum, is a reasonable amount.  That's one week off every three months.  Enough to recharge, actually enjoy your life outside of your job, go on an adventure of some kind, and come back rested, excited and rejuvenated. 

This is one thing I despise about the US, and the major one that I am not sure how it may affect my choice in remaining here over the long term.

5.  To piggyback on #4, you will likely become incredibly jealous anytime your now-overseas friends tell you they are going on vacation, or hopping on the train for a weekend away in the next country over

Oh, how that used to be you, and how deliciously awesome it was.

6.  Realizing that really, you aren't fully sure what "home" is anymore.  That maybe it can be more than one place.  You may have a handful of places that feel like home.  That home can even be a person, or persons.  And that ultimately, maybe home is more of a feeling than a place.

7. Re-entry to your old home can affect your emotional and physical health in strange, unexpected ways.  For me, some nights I sleep awesome and others, am up 2, 3, 4 times a night and cannot fall asleep until like 2am, despite eyes aching in exhaustion.  I have experienced random, brief moments of a racing heart, with no apparent or obvious reason.  Passing quickly, but still it happens.  Some days I feel awesome, energetic, great.  Others, I feel so exhausted that if I were to lie on the sidewalk, would likely fall asleep right there, even though I may have slept just fine the night before.  I feel excited and happy being back, reveling in the neat surprises that have come my way.  Sometimes I also feel anxious and uneasy, still looking for the right work, waiting with bated breathe for everything to work itself out fully (as I know, it always does :-)).

I imagine others moving back may have differing emotional/physical changes (I shared mine to offer a few potential examples- though I imagine everyone's experience will be different), but are likely to have them nonetheless.

And now for the awesome aspects:

1. Actually being able to spend time with your family more than once a year.

2. Being able to be present for life events that you were absent at prior.  Celebrations, holidays, birthdays, births, weddings, the list goes on.  Instead of just hearing about it later on, or seeing photos via Facebook, now you can actually attend.  Be a part of them once again.  Laugh along with everyone during the funny moments instead of just being told via third person.  Being there with them, experiencing it together and making a shared memory instead of just one you will hear of.

3. An upside of American culture?  Convenience.  Stores are open on Sundays.  Being able to buy several things, groceries, toiletries, all under the same roof.  The seemingly endless options for any possible item you might need to buy (yogurts?  Don't worry, there are 47 different brands and types to choose from ;-).  Pesto?  No need to be concerned whether or not they'll have it.  They will.  Probably 9 different varieties).

4. When grocery shopping, people actually bagging your groceries for you.  This sounds trivial.  Its not.  Back in Germany, when your groceries are being checked through, rapid fire, and then having to try shoving them all in bags well before you pay so that the next persons things don't get mixed with yours and they aren't sighing and staring, disgruntled in your direction as you have to finish bagging while their groceries are now being rung through?  The worst.  Totally ruins the experience of grocery shopping, ending on a anxiety inducing, hurried, tense note. 

Here in American?  None of that crap.  They bag your things for you.  And it is awesome.

5. No language barrier.  This make things SO much easier in a smattering of ways.  When making a new friend, not having to worry about their understanding you (or, you being able to understand them) as fully as you might otherwise.  When/if approaching or being approach by someone of the opposite gender or a romantic interest, not having to worry if they speak your language or not.  Cultural references, sarcasm, certain jokes, things that no longer get lost in translation.  Being able to read all signs with ease.  No glass ceiling in terms of job possibilities because of language barrier.

Granted, I sometimes find myself actually missing reading menus in German, attempting ordering in German, hearing different German phrases, listening to other people talk and being able to generally understand and roughly translate the German in my head.  All of this was lots of fun :-).  But, it also makes life a lot easier living where your own language is the main one.

6.  Free tap water at any restaurant.  My god, was this my biggest pet peeve ever.  Most restaurants, not just in Germany but throughout Europe, make you pay for water in restaurants.  This blew my mind and irked me to no end.  Its water.  Water and bathrooms, two basic human needs that should be free and easily accessible when needed.  I am so glad to be away from that silliness.  Now, I can have all the free tap water I like, and its amazing.  Hallelujah!!!

7. You will be a totally different person now in your return, from the person you are when you left.  And this is generally going to be an awesome thing, for wherever you go next in life.  Enriching relationships, serving to influence values and future life choices.  Hopefully instilling in you sensed of adventure.  The list goes on.

Much of my core personality is the same, but much within has changed and grown in the last four years of being away.  Greater inner strength and confidence in speaking up for myself with others- this I worked hard on and put into use throughout of my time abroad.  Feeling generally braver, more willing to jump (specifically I am referring to life goals, places I might want to go, things I wish to achieve, etc) for something I want even when it scares me or is stressful.  I am happier.  More mature and thoughtful.  Feelings of self contentment and joy have come over me that were not nearly as pronounced prior to my departure. 

I like to think these are some of the changes and growths that have taken place during my time overseas.  And I imagine those who have lived in another country/culture for several years have experienced their own levels of growth, change and shifts inside themselves too.

8.  You learn that courage is overrated ;-).  People will frequently tell you, "oh man, you are so brave for what you did."  That's a small part of it, but mostly its just deciding to do something you want, feeling the fear, and doing it anyway.  In doing something so huge, uprooting yourself, selling all of your things, saying heart wrenching goodbyes, and going to a place where you know no one and do not speak the language, you learn that courage isn't just something you have.  Its also a choice.  Anyone can make that same choice.  We all, each of us, have that within.  Its just a matter of deciding and then acting.

Tips for adjusting once you have moved back home/to your old culture.

1. Focus on what you've gained.  Not what you lost or gave up.  In every single life choice or change, there will be things you gain and things you give up/lost.  Its par for the course in going through life stages ;-).  Therefore, you choose on which one you focus.  There can always be truth found in both.  You will have lost some, as well as gained.  Which will you focus on?

2. Take time and make priority to reconnect with old friends. Now that you're back home, there must be people with whom you've remained in touch while you were away.  Spend time with these people again, now that you're able to.  You might be surprised at how some of them will grow to be close friends once again, now that you can actually see each other more than once a year.

3. Find things you can enjoy, little things, that will make you feel "at home."  Meaning, give you feelings of comfort and remembrance from where you just moved away from.  This could be a favorite type of tea you used to drink abroad (find it on Amazon and order some).  Maybe a ritual you used to revel in (having every Sunday afternoon to go sit in a café and write the day away.  Take one or two Sundays each month to do this again on occasion).  It might be talking on Skype with the close friends you made while abroad, which you want to maintain relationships with.  Whatever those things are, find them and do them.  They will help out a lot in readjusting and feeling comfort within your new life.

(PS. What is home?  And how do you know when you've found it?  Is home only a place, or can it be something else too?  This article discusses that in depth).

4. Plan some excitement and fun things to look forward to in your new life.  It could be a weekend trip away with friends.  A long afternoon spent doing something fun and reconnecting with an old friend with whom you have remained close over distance (but now, you can actually hang out again in person with regularly- how cool is that!?).  Try a new workout class.  Pick up a gripping book or sign up for a local class to meet some new people (something that interests you.  Maybe photography, cooking, writing, you name it).

5. Go visit the places you used to love (prior to moving away).  Had a favorite restaurant you still think about?  A cozy café you loved frequenting prior to moving away?  Go back and revisit these places.  It will feel cozy and exciting to be back and be able to do this again.

6.  Don't feel as though in talking about your previous life experiences/chapter spent living abroad, and in feeling sad reminiscing, that it necessarily means you made the wrong decision.  You can miss something and have cherished it, but not want it back.  You can let something go and experience moments of sadness about that, all while knowing it was the right decision.  Too often, people think that if something makes them sad, it means they shouldn't have done it.  This can be true, but just as often, it isn't.

If you find happiness, joy, excitement, feelings of possibility and anticipation, in where you are now in moving forward, those are all strong indicators that you are on the right path.  Having momentary moments of nostalgia upon reflection of a past loss is not synonymous with having made the wrong decision, or of being an indicator that you should go backwards.  Feeling occasional sadness or nostalgia for things we have lost, given up, or ways things "used to be" is normal and a part of human life.  It also does not mean we shouldn't have made the choice we did.  Trust your intuition.  We let things go for a reason.  Trust that reasoning.  If you keep staring at the previous pages, you cant possibly notice all the wonder and beauty available and offered in the coming ones.